Melankoli AidilAdha.

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baca blog kawan-kawan, dia orang semua letak gambar sambut aidiladha dengan 'atuk', 'opah', 'nenek' dan sebagainya. cerita dia orang memang best. cerita gelagat nenek2 mereka menyambut adiladha, kelatah mereka bersama mereka di kampung, suasana di kampung dan sebagainya.



tiba-tiba, mula rasa sayu dengan diri sendiri. kampung tinggal kampung. kampung aku adalah KL ni...'layak ke aku konotasi kan KL sebagai 'KAMPUNG". dulu memang ada kampung, MELAKA, to be exact-'KG. GELAM, TANJUNG KLING, MELAKA". tapi sejak kedua-dua atuk dan nenek tak ada sejak bertahun-tahun lepas, memang tiada lagi istilah 'balik kampung'. belah abah, kat sini je, rumah nenek ambil masa dalam 10 minit sampai kalau berjalan kaki dari rumah.



ok, sekarang nak cerita atuk dan nenek belah abah.



atuk Malek, tak pernah berjumpa malah bertegur sapa pon. tak pernah kenal pun dia. dia pergi sebelum budak comot sempat dilahirkan. mengikut kata abah, mak ngah, mak long leha dan nenek, atuk orangnya tinggi, tegap dan bersuara garau. tapi entah la, 'description' macam mane sekalipun dia orang bagi, still tak dapat imagine him.



nenek Che Wah pergi masa budak comot form 4. dia meninggal sebab sakit tua. masa tu, i am the only one yang tak ada di sisi dia waktu dia meniggal, sebab duduk asrama. nenek ni suka memasak jugak. tapi nenek ni lain sikit 'peel dia. tapi tak mahu la cerita pasal orang yang dah pergi. tapi nenek ni memang kelakar. dia tak pernah baca mana-mana buku resipi tapi tau masak segala benda. tak pernah masak ikut sukatan ke, kiraan ke and so forth sebab dia buta huruf. tapi yang kagumnya dia boleh masak ikut sukatan 'agak-agak' dia je.

atuk sebelah mak, Md Seh, sempat kenal dia. Atuk ni garang. tapi dia pandai menjahit. mak belajar menjahit daripada dia. atuk Md Seh meninggal sebab sakit. pernah dulu kami satu keluarga berulang alik ke kampung, hantar atuk ke hospital.

nenek Lijah, sebelah mak paling best. dia pon garang jugak. tapi dia memang pandai serba serbi memasak makanan-makanan kampung. Kuih bakar dia paling sedap!. pernah waktu raya buat sama-sama dengan dia. selain itu, pernah kat kampung bakar lemang, buat kuih kapit, rendang and so forth. duduk dengan nenek kat kampung memang best. nenek ni memang banyak cerita dengan pengalaman, bila duduk dekat rumah, suka melayan dia. Nenek ni meninggal mengejut, pada mulanya ok, selepas dia mengadu sakit perut, keesokan harinya meninggal dunia di Hospital selepas satu malam di tahan di wad.

tapi tu semua tu dulu, sekarang mereka-mereka dah tak ada. Sangat rindu dengan hilai-tawa, senda-gurau, masa gembira dan duka dengan dia orang. pendek kata if i could turn back time, i wanted to turn back to old those days and cherishes the every moment spent with them, thus, get to know them.

sekarang ini, tinggal makcik-makcik belah abah je yang tinggal dekat rumah nenek yang 10 minit jalan kaki dari tu. tetapi, mereka juga sedang meniti usia tua mereka. setiap kali berjumpa mereka, seakan seperti, mereka semakin hari semakin nampak 'peningkatan umur' mereka. mereka tidak seperti dulu, kala mereka muda dan budak comot boleh bermanja-manja dengan mereka. sama juga dengan abah dengan emak, garis-garis tua sudah semakin kelihatan memberitahu bahawa umur mereka sudah lanjut.

walau apa pun yang berlaku, mak ngah, mak long leha, abah, mak tetap ada selain nenek dan atuk yang telah pergi meninggalkan budak comot. Aidiladha kali ini tetap meriah bak kata mak ngah-'Hari Raya Aidiladha ni, hari raya untuk keluarga', kami menyambutnya dengan meriah dalam kalangan keluarga. Off course, walau apa pun yang terjadi, budak comot still ada dia orang.

I Love You All So Much!

p/s: esok aku nak buat kek chocolate moist tu lagi, walaupun jadi, tapi aku still tak puas hati!

finally i can bake 'Chocolate Moist Cake'

nak tahu....

budak comot da pandai buat kek chocolate..yang moist punya..

sebenarnya buat tu tak susah sangat...tak boleh kata 'senang'..

kalau senang....people will expect that it is so easy, though it requires great patience!

haha..kek tu ala2 main dish for this hari raya aidiladha celebration in our house....

besides, i just finished reading 'For One More Day-Mitch Albom'.

Compare to the other two from the same author-'Tuesdays With Morrie' and 'Five People You Meet in Heaven', the ending is rather 'a happy ending' as i learn that 'it is never too late to make change, always think wisely and never regretted of mistakes you've done throughout your life'.

p/s: next-'Becoming a Man by Paul Monette'- a memoir of gay-writer's life and 'In Good Faith'- the thoughts and writings by Zaid Ibrahim, local-prominent lawyer.

high-school looks!

gambar ni waktu budak comot form five.
dengan seorang classmate-Nor Asilah Mohd Nor


p/s: ntah apa-apa ntah, muka 'skema', tak pandai senyum, tak pandai 'posing'...amik gambar macam nak taknak jer...

recalling the past...looking to the memories

5 beta siber 1-2006
i'm the one who made that mural '5 beta siber 1'
amik anugerah cemerlang

klaka-when i was in form 4 with Comel!
the school where we made the memories!

a friend from former high school tagged pictures of my classmates and i when i was in form 5
couldn't believe seeing mine and compare it with my 'present' one
yup...everyone including me is different...they are all mature with their own sense of style...no more 'high school looks', 'girls/boys next door looks', 'prefects/librarians/students looks'...everyone has their own goals to achieve, everyone is apart(especially syaza) but the pics tagged brought us closer
laughs, comments, of the pictures...portraying that we are still together
because you and me once had together made the memories that is so precious as it will remain until the end of times....

nabil, syawal, em, mu, salwan, huda, azeera, tirah, fahnim, syafiqah r, asyikin, sabrina k, nadhirah, kama, bash, iqa ayub, syaza, asilah, adilah, puteri, ana, ct., syafiq, nadia...our memories will remain.

saje nak letak gamba ni.

betapa kecilnya di sisi Allah s.w.t
hanya hamba-Nya yang hina...yang sering melakukan kesilapan!

what another day that fills my life!-PAK CIK HASHIM

last thursday, when heading to the bus stop as clock struck 10:05 a.m after meeting Cik Kyra in the office, i was forgetting something that i should take along...gosh it is the book again...'law of torts' that i shoould bring together for exam's refernce.

without further due, i went back to my room to get the book. in about a couple of hours, i'll be sitting the 'media and communication law' as the book contains all the infos and cases regarding to some topics. it will be a loss of not flipping through the book.

then, when i'm about to arrive to my hostel, i saw in a distance-'Pak Cik Hashim', the maintenance people from 'Kausar'. he saw me and i waved my hand up, to acknowledeg him. he return my acknowledgement by waving to me back. i entered my room and took the book and walk towards the bus stop back.

when i climb down the staircase outside my hostel, i saw a 'jeep' approaching me, two middle age-men were inside the 'jeep' and then stopped!. it was 'Pak Cik Hashim' again who drives the jeep and next sitting to him is his indonesian co-worker. he asked me:

Pak Cik Hashim: 'Nak Pergi mana?
Budak Comot: 'nak pegi library la pak cik'
Pak Cik Hashim: 'kat mana tu'
Budak Comot: 'dekat Pusanika'
Pak Cik Hashim: 'mari la naik, pak cik hantar kan'.

without no more hesitation, just jump into the jeep with a reckon...'nasib baik ade pak cik hashim, aku ni da lambat nak pegi sana'.

the brief conversation outside the jeep just now continued in the jeep while on our way to Pusanika.

Pak Cik Hashim: 'nak pergi library buat apa?'
Budak Comot: 'nak studi pak cik, ade exam dalam pukul 3 karang'
Pak Cik Hashim: 'kenapa muka kau nampak sedih je'

ooopppsss...another self-portrayal...i may look innocent and sadden and sorrowness but that didn't mean that i am of that such emotion, triggering me. with an utmost reply:

Budak Comot: 'takde la pak cik, cuma risau, kejap lagi exam, takut tak boleh buat'

FINALLY-the truth jumped out from my mouth!...Damn!

Pak cik Hashim: 'kau tak perlu risau, kau pak cik tengok ada azam, nak belajar, kuatkan semangat, nanti dipermudahkan...selagi kau ada azam untuk berjaya, selagi itu kau akan berjaya...kau dulu SPM berapa A?
Budak Comot: '10 A Pak cik'
Pak Cik Hashim: 'hmmmm...kau ambil jurusan apa?'
Budak Comot: 'Undang-Undang'
Pak cik Hashim: 'ooo..bagus la ko...'

as we arrived to Pusanika, he dropped me off and managed to wish me...'jawab periksa baik2'.

i took those words from him. although he is not like Tun Dr. M or Barack Obama, but he is just an ordinary people who wished that people around him become better....

the day itself ended up not to darn gloom and not to be the brightest sunshines.
i finished with the exams with a relief...with the saying...'i manage to climb another mountain...it's the climb again!'

to pak cik Hashim: tq for being a supportive-people at the right time when i need support.

p/s: sharing is caring, just trying to be an english writer, in preparation to go some place...huhu...hoping the 'sharing' of this story will be read and inpired by others

dalam banyak-banyak *talam apa yang ada muka?

jawapan: *talam dua muka*

p/s: ooooppsss......