high-school looks!

gambar ni waktu budak comot form five.
dengan seorang classmate-Nor Asilah Mohd Nor


p/s: ntah apa-apa ntah, muka 'skema', tak pandai senyum, tak pandai 'posing'...amik gambar macam nak taknak jer...

recalling the past...looking to the memories

5 beta siber 1-2006
i'm the one who made that mural '5 beta siber 1'
amik anugerah cemerlang

klaka-when i was in form 4 with Comel!
the school where we made the memories!

a friend from former high school tagged pictures of my classmates and i when i was in form 5
couldn't believe seeing mine and compare it with my 'present' one
yup...everyone including me is different...they are all mature with their own sense of style...no more 'high school looks', 'girls/boys next door looks', 'prefects/librarians/students looks'...everyone has their own goals to achieve, everyone is apart(especially syaza) but the pics tagged brought us closer
laughs, comments, of the pictures...portraying that we are still together
because you and me once had together made the memories that is so precious as it will remain until the end of times....

nabil, syawal, em, mu, salwan, huda, azeera, tirah, fahnim, syafiqah r, asyikin, sabrina k, nadhirah, kama, bash, iqa ayub, syaza, asilah, adilah, puteri, ana, ct., syafiq, nadia...our memories will remain.

saje nak letak gamba ni.

betapa kecilnya di sisi Allah s.w.t
hanya hamba-Nya yang hina...yang sering melakukan kesilapan!

what another day that fills my life!-PAK CIK HASHIM

last thursday, when heading to the bus stop as clock struck 10:05 a.m after meeting Cik Kyra in the office, i was forgetting something that i should take along...gosh it is the book again...'law of torts' that i shoould bring together for exam's refernce.

without further due, i went back to my room to get the book. in about a couple of hours, i'll be sitting the 'media and communication law' as the book contains all the infos and cases regarding to some topics. it will be a loss of not flipping through the book.

then, when i'm about to arrive to my hostel, i saw in a distance-'Pak Cik Hashim', the maintenance people from 'Kausar'. he saw me and i waved my hand up, to acknowledeg him. he return my acknowledgement by waving to me back. i entered my room and took the book and walk towards the bus stop back.

when i climb down the staircase outside my hostel, i saw a 'jeep' approaching me, two middle age-men were inside the 'jeep' and then stopped!. it was 'Pak Cik Hashim' again who drives the jeep and next sitting to him is his indonesian co-worker. he asked me:

Pak Cik Hashim: 'Nak Pergi mana?
Budak Comot: 'nak pegi library la pak cik'
Pak Cik Hashim: 'kat mana tu'
Budak Comot: 'dekat Pusanika'
Pak Cik Hashim: 'mari la naik, pak cik hantar kan'.

without no more hesitation, just jump into the jeep with a reckon...'nasib baik ade pak cik hashim, aku ni da lambat nak pegi sana'.

the brief conversation outside the jeep just now continued in the jeep while on our way to Pusanika.

Pak Cik Hashim: 'nak pergi library buat apa?'
Budak Comot: 'nak studi pak cik, ade exam dalam pukul 3 karang'
Pak Cik Hashim: 'kenapa muka kau nampak sedih je'

ooopppsss...another self-portrayal...i may look innocent and sadden and sorrowness but that didn't mean that i am of that such emotion, triggering me. with an utmost reply:

Budak Comot: 'takde la pak cik, cuma risau, kejap lagi exam, takut tak boleh buat'

FINALLY-the truth jumped out from my mouth!...Damn!

Pak cik Hashim: 'kau tak perlu risau, kau pak cik tengok ada azam, nak belajar, kuatkan semangat, nanti dipermudahkan...selagi kau ada azam untuk berjaya, selagi itu kau akan berjaya...kau dulu SPM berapa A?
Budak Comot: '10 A Pak cik'
Pak Cik Hashim: 'hmmmm...kau ambil jurusan apa?'
Budak Comot: 'Undang-Undang'
Pak cik Hashim: 'ooo..bagus la ko...'

as we arrived to Pusanika, he dropped me off and managed to wish me...'jawab periksa baik2'.

i took those words from him. although he is not like Tun Dr. M or Barack Obama, but he is just an ordinary people who wished that people around him become better....

the day itself ended up not to darn gloom and not to be the brightest sunshines.
i finished with the exams with a relief...with the saying...'i manage to climb another mountain...it's the climb again!'

to pak cik Hashim: tq for being a supportive-people at the right time when i need support.

p/s: sharing is caring, just trying to be an english writer, in preparation to go some place...huhu...hoping the 'sharing' of this story will be read and inpired by others

dalam banyak-banyak *talam apa yang ada muka?

jawapan: *talam dua muka*

p/s: ooooppsss......

Kawan Jenis Apa Aku ni ek!

assalamualaikum.

aku dapat tahu daripada blog kawan baik aku, dia mengalami masalah yang datang bertimpa-timpa. dia memang jenis yang tak nak menyusahkan orang, maka dia tak suka nak beritahu orang yang dia mengalami masalah. bila budak comot baca blog dia, nasib menimpa ayah dia, sama menimpa ibu aku...yang sampai sekarang ini masih belum boleh buat kerja, hanya boleh bertongkat untuk berjalan dan kakak-kakak aku yang mandikan. betapa kesan kejadian pada 10 September 2008 yang lepas memberi kesan yang sangat memeritkan kepada dirinya, dan diriku.

tetapi apa yang membuatkan aku sedih, 8 September 2008, 2 hari sebelum kejadian itu berlaku, aku masih sempat menelefon dia dan abah, mengingatkan mereka "hari ini hari jadi faiz-hujung minggu ni nak celebrate la, dengan emak...", pada penghujung perbualan sempat lagi dengar emak cakap "kau elok-elok kat sana-selamat hari jadi". belum pun sempat hari yang ditnanti-nantikan (hujung minggu), aku menerima panggilan daripada Mak Long, butir perbualan:

Mak Long: "kau cakap ngan abah kau tu elok-elok, lepas ini jaga emak kau tu baik2"
Faiz: "nape pulak?"
Mak Long: "kau tak tau ke mak kau masuk hospital-darah tinggi dan strok"

*serius aku rasa dunia seakan-akan menunduk kerana gagal dalam tugasnya sebagai skrin realiti kehidupan. dia sepatutnya menunjukkan apa yang telah berlaku, namun, tiada siapa memberitahu budak comot mengenai benda ni-emak dimasukkan ke hospital semalam.

badan rasa bergetar, terus call abah:

Abah: "faiz apa yang abah nak cakap ni jangan kau panik, kelam kabut dan terkejut pulak...mak kau masuk hospital...semalam dia jatuh, kepala terhantuk kat besi katil...doktor kata dia ada kencing manis, darah tinggi, strok...n mungkin buah pinggang dia rosak!"

hatta, aku sekali lagi merasakan dunia menipu, kenapa aku tidak diberitahu 'in the first place'.

terus, airmata ku bercucuran jatuh, tak boleh ditahan-tahan lagi. keluar daripada library-PTSL, dengan airmata yang tertahan, bergegas pulang untuk menemui emak di hospital.

Harapan: sambut hari jadi musnah sama sekali!

berbalik kepada topik yang nak dibincangkan, aku rasa aku tak ambil tahu pun pasal kawan baik aku ni. sampai ni bukak blok baru dapat tahu perkara ini dan perkara tu dah berlaku beberapa minggu lepas.namun, tadi dia ada call "gud luck untuk exam" dengan nada yang biasa seolah-olah tiada apa yang berlaku ke atasnya. aku insaf, lepas ini aku akan sentiasa ambil berat pasal.

*wey...kuatkan diri kau...kita memang tak ade jodoh nak pursue degree sama-sama...but, aku yakin, kita akan jumpa lagi...tuhan maha adil...'kun faya kun'!

aku sentiasa mendoakan kau bahagia!

p/s: jantan keparat = budak comot

Kau Jangan nak bagi aku marah!

assalamualaikum.

Kau ingat kau siapa.

Kau jangan nak bagi aku marah.

Kau belum tengok lagi aku marah.

Kau ingat-ingat sikit.

Sebelum aku naik angin,

KAU JANGAN NAK BAGI AKU MARAH!

p/s: cuba cakap baik-baik sikit. Sebab itu Malaysia menjadi negara yang kurang budi pekerti. Sebab ada orang macam kau ni la!