you wear them around like you're cooler than me...

Mike Posner-Cooler Than Me. (lagu)

kadang-kadang kita tak sedar kita da buat something yang luar sedar, i mean bnda2 yang mungkin menyakitkan hati orang lain, being selfish, tak ada rasa empathy dalam diri, and macam2 lagi.

sebab tu ada seorang kawan, merasakan dia perlu memuhasabah dirinya, dengan melakukan perkara-perkara yang boleh menyebabkan dia memuhasabahkan dirinya, contohnya, mengikuti program ke rumah anak-anak yatim, dengan harapan, dia akan merasa sesuatu dan keep her on the right track.

saya setuju! kadang2 kita tak sedar, so kene lah kembali ke perjalanan biasa hidup in.

btw, hari-hari dijalani dengan kesibukan berteater, berpantun dan bersocial. berteater sebab sibuk PTU n lepas PTU, ICAF. berpantun sebab masuk pertandingan pantun. bersosial sebab keluar sana, sini, tengok wayang, keluar berjimba, etc.

apa-apa pon, i should always stand and keep my feet on the ground. :))

p/s: you're not that good...deal with it!

p/s: gmba james dean, idola style!

Pemulangan: Refund!

saya dulu tidak suka akan banyak perkara.

1-tempe

2-quaker oat

3-berkasut

4-memakai baju berwarna terang2

maka, saya suka ceritakan pada orang ramai, 'saya tak suka item 1-4 seperti di atas'

tetapi as time goes by... saya mula makan+pakai item2 tersebut. mula-mula ambil suka2, lama-lama dijadikan kebiasaan dan akhirnya memang jadi favourite.

maka, statement perakuan yang sering saya lontarkan kepada kawan2 saya dulu seakan mula merubah dan 'sanctity of the statement is collapse'. sebab kawan2 mula bertanya 'dlu bukan kau tak suka n benci habis ngan tempe??' 'ko bukan tak suka ke oat??' 'eyh since when ko mula suka berkasut gi mana-mana??' n 'striking giler baju ko..mana pergi baju ko yg gelap dlu2 tu'

HIPOTESIS: 'never say never'... kalau da sekali ckap bila da terbuat seolah2 'ko makan balik apa yang kau cakap'

tapi bukan perkara ni yang saya nak perkatakan

just nak share, sometimes matters concerning sensitivity towards certain matter shouldn't be raised up and taken back.

alah, cara mudahnya, bila kau dah cakap and tuduh yang bukan-bukan kepada orang tanpa sebarang autoriti, bukti atau just ko dengar hear-say, statement yg dah dibuat to that group will still remain and tk payah la ko nak berdalih kata 'that statement is actually refered tu someone else'...padahal, terang terangan refer kepada that affected group.

lepas tu mula la gelabah, cakap macam kenapa la that matter jadi big issue. memang la, da kau terang-terangan tuduh yang bukan2 smpai nak sentuh sensitiviti the people at large.

and then, tk boleh la ko nak act as if 'that is not u, i'm referring to someone else..'. terlajak perahu boleh diundur...terlajak kata...??

so, when decision is made, REFUND, kenapa tak nak terima, terima aje la... saya rasa PEMULANGAN itu is the right decision. maybe merasakan kalau menerima wang itu, seolah2 satu penghinaan with regards to the issue.

btw, saya rasa tak pun. better amik, kalau tak mahu juga, beri atau sedekah pada orang lain. :))

so, relate back to the first instance dengan the issue: 'jangan suka cakap benda2 yang konon kita tak suka atau kita cakap kita tak suka pada orang, bila kita buat benda tu atau kita sendiri dipanggil untuk membuat pengakuan kita mengelak seolah2 kita takut atau takut dimalukan'

saya memang mula2 malu untuk mengaku suka makan tempe, oat, berkasut dan pakai baju kaler striking(sebabnya dlu rase gemuk n org gemuk hanya sesuai pakai kaler gelap!). lama-lama, sedar yang saya sendiri yang buat statement tu dulu..so it's the price i have to pay la..hahah!'

p/s: Nak Mintak Maaf Sebab Selalu Jugak Kutuk Orang. (Tapi Saya da Biasa....Macam Mana...??)

keberengsetan!

hahaha... antara perkara2 yg berlaku yang cukup signifikan selama 2 minggu sebelum 1/1/11!

1. tinggal di tempat baru di mana semua org semacam sudah bertahun-tahun kenal aku tinggal situ

p/s: eyh..ko bukan budak Za'ba ke??...aku jawab aku dah lari!

2. Sekreteriat Pemasaran ditempatkan untuk PBL Land-Malay Reserve Land. kali ni ala-ala fieldwork jangan ingat budak2 fst jer ada fieldwork.

p/s: Langkawi, here we come!

3. 'Innercircle'... menular lah!

p/s: janji korg bahagia...

4. Spanjang sesi 2010/2011... pertama kali pergi tgok wayang!

p/s: Filem: Hantu Kak Limah Balik Rumah
Genre: Komedi-Seram
Kaki Wayang yg Dimaksudkan: 3F, Faiz, Fatin, Faizelina a.k.a Ina

5. Tipah tertipu: JPA tak masuk mengikut waktu yang ditetapkan. Ikat perut dan berputih mata jer lah.

p/s: maklumat yg baru diterima: JPA sudah lama masukkan duit tpi duit diapungkan untuk dividen tahun depan. as ordinary reasonable man, dah tau student masuk setahun 2 kali, alasan menuggu bajet 2011 tak berpatutan. Sahih atau tidak, sama2 kita tunggu n siasat.

6. masih ada yang sayang padamu. merujuk no.5, ada beberapa org yang dengan suci hatinya telah PM inbox FB aku dengan menawarkan pertolongan dari segi financial. tapi tkpa la, tanak menyusahkan org lain..

p/s: TERHARU SANGAT! terima kasih kepada orang2 ini. hanya Allah sahaja yang akan membalas budi baik anda.

7. 'Syafiq...Fahmi...Faizah...Zahadi...Faiz Gaia'

p/s: entahla...memang nama aku nama 'Hybrid'...boleh jadi macam2, ala2 'transformer'

8. toilet rosak...turun satu floor untuk 'membuang!'

p/s: nasib baik ada air...tk macam kolej2 lain. Alhamdulillah

9. 'people easily forget the past and others'

p/s:................

10. :)

p/s: susah senang pon, still smiling!

p/s: tajuk 'keberengsetan' memang tak sesuai dengan entry ni..tapi tah-suka dengan perkataan tu!

happy new year!

happy new year!

Answer here

there she goes..

she is not tutoring us anymore...

p/s: No Cheers!

p/s: entry paling pendek pernah aku buat buat.. Cheers!

attachment!

attachment adalah merujuk kepada latihan sangkutan, satu kursus yang merupakan requirement oleh FUU dan UKM kepada pelajar Semester 2 tahun 3.

i've called several firms, every firms that i'd called reply my questions with kind and modest manner saying that they accept students doing attachment, and also chambering. when asked what is your firm usually handled?? they said, most of them do conveyancing, litigation, bankruptcy and insolvency, family matters either syariah or civil, banking, documentation and so little on criminal..if there was, it was not-so-heavy as they said like theft and no 'drugs'.

since many firms had confirmed taking students for attachment and eager on accepting me, i am in a crossroads of having to choose which will it be.

since i did'nt 'walk in', just interviewed(is not so that interview la, they just asked me for how long, where are u from..etc), i am very unsure of which one.

since most of the firms are near to my place and made me believe why they are so much into conveyancing, etc, as the area is filled with housing development, not-so-big projects, shophouses, in short, the area is mushrooming to be a town by having it like 7-e...a town which has everything, from houses-bungalows-schools-shopping complex and so forth.

back to the issue of choosing the firms.

i don't go for which firm is big, a lot of contacts and clients coming in, prominently owned by prominent lawyers, what the firm is going to offer and benefits that a student would gain having attached there. i go for who is eager to accept me as attachee in his firm besides the answers received saying that 'we do accept students doing attachment here, just send me your official letter' like and go with by reconfirming with the firm as i'd called the firm, the lawyer in charge said with his humble voice.. 'this is the first time we receive this kind of call asking for doing an attachment as we had yet to receive any such student, however we do accept chambering but it is also rare for those intended to the chambering approach us...i'm gonna consider you and confirm with me tomorrow...'

asked about payment, i replied by saying 'well some firms do give allowance but that is not my major concern... my purpose is not for allowance, but the learning experince that i would garner as much as i can that the firm will offer, it's okay as i'm not doing it for being paid...'

with his humble voice in a aplomb manner, 'okay, i'm considering you and i'm gonna confirm with you tomorrow, however if i do not call u late in the afternoon, do give me a call'

worthiness to call him back as the answer is yes and he actually forgets to return my call to confirm.

i don't care about maybe another firm that had confirmed with me are better off as compared to this firm with regards to practices of law, i accept this firm as the lawyer in charge who answered over the firm enough to indicate what sort of person he is when it comes to being 'a people's lawyer' like what i'm ambitioned to be.

i'm so nervous for the attachment as i'm afraid that i'm gonna be put to 'test' in which the firm left you with lots of works or testing your knowledge. but then, if i don't take it as a challenge, how would i go about to be someone successful someday!

p/s: ngantuk lah!...btw still menuggu 'H' untuk pergi shopping bersama...!

manis bak bunga...

saya terpanggil untuk menulis pasal gula-gula. Sebab, waktu saya kecil, saya memang gemarkan sudirman dan gula-gula..erk..apakah kena mengena sudirman dengan gula-gula??



well, when i was a kid, i'am exposed to entertainment and sudirman was a figure who was very much associated with it. Way back in the 80's and early 90's, Sudirman was a music icon and the nation were fondly-influenced by him through his so true voice through his songs and he himself had became apart of our lives regardless of who u are, where are u from. An eccentric performer with distinguish styles that many artistes wouldn't enough good to over take him, even until today, his legacy still remains through his songs recorded and played, or sang by us.



the relation of 'gula-gula' and Sudirman is, i can still recall i was so into a song of entitled 'Pesan Abang'.



liriknya sangat signifikan untuk tujuan 'entry' ini:

Adikku muda remaja,

Awasi bila melangkah,

Wajahmu manis bak bunga,

Pasti ramai yang tergoda,

Tidak dilarang kau bersuka,

Asal tahu kan batasnya,

Jangan sampai adik terlupa,

Harapan dan cita-cita.

from the song, it clearly states about 'wajahmu manis bak bunga'.

apa yang saya rasa di sini, manis bak bunga memiliki beberapa maksud yang menjadikan saya betul menyukai lagu ni, selain bait2 lirik yang lain dalam lagu tu 'is straight forward meaning'

manis, macam gula-gula walaupun tertulis 'bak bunga'.

saya merasakan hidup adalah manis macam makan gula-gula. manis sebab kita akan melalui hidup dengan penuh suka duka. Kadang-kadang sesuatu yang menyeronokkan, kadang-kadang pahit atau perit atau sedih, kecewa and etc. Namun masih dianggap manis akhirnya sebab kita dah berjaya melaui semua itu, macam makan gula-gula, gula-gula perisa strawberry memang manis, tapi ada juga gula-gula macam hacks yang kadang-kadang pahit atau pedas tapi still kita telan dan rasa manis jugak akhirnya.

'manis bak bunga' melambangkan semasa kita muda, kita boleh melakukan apa sahaja. ketika muda kudrat kita masih elok untuk buat atau capai apa sahaja sehingga merasai kemanisan selepas melakukannya. sebabnya, bila kita semakin tua, macam kita makan gula-gula-semakin dihisap, semakin mengecut, hilang manisnya dan akhirnya dikunyah, mengecil dan terus ditelan. begitulah akhirnya, contoh macam Mak saya sendiri, masa muda memang cantik-'manis'. semakin tahun ke tahun, saya rasa amat berbeza rupanya jika dibandingkan dengan foto semasa dia 'merende' bersama-sama teman-temannya..hahahh.., lebih-lebih lagi melihat keadaannya yang tidak boleh banyak bergerak, bergantung hidup pada mesin 'dialysis' and hanya terlantar di atas katil, memakai pampers dan duduk sahaja di atas kerusi roda.

So, youthful won't last forever, as it will fade through times. Enjoy it while it last and do not waste it for the next chapter of life as whatever that you do today will impose 'persistent threat' to your next life.

p/s:....is listening to the songs over and over again!